First appointment with the Psychologist

Last Thursday, I met with the psychologist.

I was nervous- I hadn't done this before and her office was in a part of the city I didn't really know, so I showed up 2 hours early.

Afterwards however, I felt better. She's really nice and easy to talk to.

She gave me a form to fill out to test where my levels of anxiety, depression and stress lie- as a base line. The results came back that I have mild stress, moderate depression and severe anxiety.

So, where do we go from here?

Because there's always room for a Buffy pop culture reference

I go back next week to see her again. In the meantime, she gave me a form to fill out.

It looks something like this. I have to chart my mood between 1 (Worst) and 10 (best) in the morning and in the afternoon; list how many hours sleep I got that night; and anything positive/negative that happens to affect my mood, bring on an anxiety attack, etc.

So far the most sleep I've gotten is 8 hours, and that was the night after she gave me the form. The highest my mood has been is 8. The lowest is 4.
And I've realised that my mood is even lower at night.

Chart aside, it's been ok. I had an anxiety attack today at work, halfway through the assembly. I had to leave because it felt like I couldn't breathe, and it came out of nowhere.

I hate this. I hate that it's impacting my work, which makes me even more anxious.