Earthquakes

So far, I've had two anxiety attacks at school. Last week, I had a break between classes so I was able to rest up before teaching.

Yesterday, I just taught through it. Which in hindsight, was a dumb idea, but whatever.

One of my classes noted something was up (because they're good kids and pretty observant), and I told them the truth. 

The kids asked what it felt like, which was a difficult question to answer, because there's a scale. Some aren't as bad as others. Some are really bad and then I have almost aftershocks for the rest of the day.

One of the girls made the observation that it sounds like earthquakes, which is fairly accurate.

The worst ones are where I feel as though my throat is closing over and I can't breathe. I have chest pain and a burning sensation that (at it's absolute worst) can spread up into my mouth and down into my arms. My heart pounds heavily and my arms and legs shake. I feel exhausted and lightheaded afterwards. These are the ones where I have "aftershocks" afterwards, which are really like the smallest attacks. 

The medium ones are where I can breathe (yay), but my chest feels tight and I have the pounding heart and the shaking. I don't feel dizzy and lightheaded, but I still feel drained and exhausted.

The smallest ones are where my heart just pounds heavy and I get a little shaky. 

I have my second appointment with the psychologist this afternoon.