My weekend in anxiety

This weekend has been really mixed.

It started off awesome. I had some girls over from work for... well, for what was supposed to be afternoon tea but ended up being snacks for dinner. Anyway, that was really great.

I was so nervous about having people over because... well I always feel so awkward about being around people. But maybe I was more comfortable because it was in my house? I don't know.

Anyway, it went really well and it was a really fun night. Plus, my mum called me in the afternoon and said she and my dad were coming down the next day, which made me happy. Because even though I'm going home next weekend, I like seeing my parents. Especially when I'm not the one doing the travelling to see them.

And then Saturday was... mixed. I didn't sleep really well, because I was on a high from actually being sociable and about my parents coming over, so I was up really early. It sucks being up at 7.30 am on a Saturday morning for no reason, but whatever.

Then my little sister called me at about 11 am, to tell me she found out she has retinal pigmentosa (which I'm probably spelling wrong). Basically, it's an eye disease; and either she can go or will eventually go blind. It's not good, so that has our whole family stressed (well, I'm not sure about my brother. And my other sister is completely unsympathetic, but I don't think she got how serious it is).

Then I bought a car. Which sounds good, and technically is, except for the part where I don't like spending heaps of money and had an anxiety attack in the dealership (coz I'm smooth that way). And then there's the part where the idea of driving unsupervised completely freaks me out (yes, I am that pathetic); so I was anxious all night and barely slept.

So, now I'm tired and shaky and anxious and just... blah.